Finished week 5 off on a low note, depending on how you look at it. I only lost 100gms and .5cm. However, I am bloated with water retention and what not so the fact that I've registered a loss of any sort is good. Usually during my water retention moments my weight goes up by around 2kg. That's not to say that I'm really 2kg lighter... I wish.
Along with my water retention I'm having a mad appetite increase and I'm really struggling with not eating every morsel of food in the house. In particular I'm craving sweet things like chocolate and cookies (yum cookies!)... and I'm very lucky there are none in the house because I'm really not sure I could stop myself!
In a previous blog I mentioned I was bike riding and walking almost every night for 30mins over the past two years and still gaining weight. What I've learned from doing this program is why they weren't working for me. One: my food intake was more IN and not enough OUT. Two: while being very dedicated to my walking and riding the exercise was not intense, varied or targeted enough to have any real impact.
One of my really low moments happened about a year ago. I was invited to a ball and was so excited. I planned on wearing my wedding dress [above] only to find that it didn't fit me any more. I knew I had gone from a size 8 to a 10 and had fooled myself into thinking I hadn't also gone up to a size 12. Going ball gown shopping was depressing. I walk in, the assistant asked me what size I am, I reluctantly confessed to being a size 12. She takes one look at me and says she'll fetch me a size 14. Admittedly all the measurements on the gown websites confirmed I was a 14. Nonetheless while she was off fetching a 14 I popped the size 12 gown on and it fit me fine. I purchase the gorgeous gown and attend the ball thinking I look like a princess only to see the photos and see a little blimp in the pics. Who is this person? How did I become her?
My goal now is to try on my wedding dress and the ball gown at the end of the six weeks and see how they fit. My size 12 clothes are swimming on me and I now fit back into my size 10's.
I've only one week left to give it all I've got. The program has been
intense and not for the faint hearted. I've had to work harder than I
ever thought I could. Then again I've seen people bigger than me on
biggest loser running on sandy beaches carrying tires. The human body
is capable of much more than we give it credit for.